all that cant be said

this one is dedicated to miah. cos he waited so long for me to post it up. so its for you. haha. it's mild cos i cant really write wad actually goes on here. too explicit. ahaha

I WAS A TEENAGED PORNSTAR

when i walk down the street
people point but dont greet
"hey thats the girl"
who would've known i send their lives into a whirl

it was just a job
i did it cos i didnt wanna be a slob
plus i was 15 and people were so mean
even now they wont wipe my slate clean

they dont know the complications
that tag along with such occupations
they were prejudiced and judged against me
it hurt so bad, i lost all sense of dignity

i see myself when i walk into a video store
at the magazine stands theres even more
it all happened so long ago
since then their disgust did nothing but grow

at job interviews managers ask
"what have you fulfilled? what important task?"
i dont have anything accounted to my name
apart from all the unwanted fame

what awaits me in the future?
will laughs and mocks become second nature?
i was a teenage pornstar
at that time i didnt realise, my life i'd thrown afar.