all that cant be said

i havent done anything special all lent. so then came maundy thursday. dorcas joanne and yuliang stayed over at my place. we planned to re-watch the lord of the rings trilogy in extended versions!! yea!! ok so as a catholic family tradition there's always the church visitation on maundy thurday night. they followed along on the visitation, so i took it upon myself, like a vocation you know.. ahahhaa. to like talk them through and explain to them what was going on. haha of course with dorcas there was the constant "where are the altar boys?" question. so we went first to mary of the angels church. wow it is sooo nice!! plus the crucifix is like superrr cool!!! it was real dark and loomy so the three of them were quite creeped out. the figure of the crucified christ above the altar was indeed creepy for a first timer. along with the solemn atmosphere. next up, st joseph along cashew rd. it was big!! plus they had the actual stations. so that was cool. of course the 3 of them were comparing altar boys "why that one just now so attentive this one not?" yep.. third place was st ignatius. it was pretty empty compared to the previous 2 churches. went down to the main church. den they asked "where are all the altar boys?" hahaha. den we went up and found the altar boys. yep.. last place was holy cross. it's great showing them a place i kinda grew up with and have grown so attached to. so now they know how it looks like! yay!! hahaha. yea dorcas knows guan so she was like "where's guan?" hahaha. at least its a different question. den we went back for some hardcore LOTR!
it was awesome just sharing the visitation experience with them. i have a to admit. of all the traditions, this is probably one of my most favourite. and i could teach them about good friday and how we catholics do stuff. it was just a great feeling. just sharing the experience.

good friday mass was spent well.. standing. hahaha. so was easter sunday mass.. aahha 2 masses in a row!!!! oh my!!! ah leong and the rciy kids got baptised finally. wow!! WELCOME TO THE FAMILY!!!! yep.

sigh daddy said friggy's gonna leave to study in rome. he's been a really big part of my faith formation in church and i hate to see him go. but hey it's all for the best. we'll all miss him though.

sat went to eat sushi with shaomu darren and dorcas to celebrate darren's birthday. wah i was sooo full larr.. den went shopping. hahaha. yay i bought 2 rings 1 skirt and i pair of earrings. i went to borders but they had no calvin and hobbes. derek came back a few hours later and he said he saw 3 calvin and hobbes on bargain. aahh!!! pissed off! must go and get them!!

ok so nowadays i've found myself a new love. yep. no not a tall hunky one but more of a hobby. damn! haha yep. ok it may sound stupid or profound.. wahaha.. so some of you. but i really enjoy writing poems. you know how people like doodle on the tables when lesosns are boring. well, i write. poems. not necessarily something i am or can relate to. i write bout everything. grief, fun, doubt, love. its just amazing how you can express something so simple in such complex words. and something so complex in such a simple form. it works both ways. so now im planning to write poems for the people around me. to me poetry is like an outlet. somewhere i escape to. i dont rhyme well though. so i've been doing a lot of non-rhyming serious poems. maybe i'll post them next time. i've got like tonnes in my chem book and diary. anyway i've been pretty happy these few days. i felt so blessed on easter sunday. i really dont know why. hahaha maybe cos i was wearing comfy pyjamas! but really. and lately my hardest subject a math hasnt been giving me problems at all!! ahhahaa. so i definitely have a lot to give thanks for.

today in school i wrote poems again!!! hahaha. i went mad with them lar. so now i owe jeraldine and sherri poems too. ahahha. and aiyun and i are gonna write one together. neat!! sat between nat and zr during a math. hahahaha and i could actually keep up with them. so that was good. after school was hanging around in the classroom den saw szeliang walking in acjc. so sherri was with me and she was like. "the girl next to him!! the super pro ij shooter. sooo CHIO!!" hhahaha. she's mad! so i called him. so paiseh larr. wahhh. nevermind at least sherri saw her chiobu. hahaha.

so worried for next year's committee. at the rate they're going. i really dont see how it all can work out. sigh.