all that cant be said

its real difficult having to deal with loss. whether your own or of someone else. after all the only thing that feels worse than being lost is losing someone. like something you hold close and dear to you being suddenly taken away. but when you explore furthur into it, you'll realise that maybe death isnt as bad as it is made out to be. think about it. you work and slave all your life jus to make ends meet. it's a tough life. and you barely make it most of the time. ending of your sorrows? perhaps. certainly sensible. also in life you prepare yourself by going to church, by praying, just so that you will be made worthy in the eyes of god your creator. death is god taking you home. like the ultimate reunion. it may sound kind of rude maybe. but it is all of your hard work paying off. the end really is the beginning of something great. jus like in the semisonic song closing time. one line that really hit me was "every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end." think about it. it is true. when one door closes another opens. of course. it depends on god. when he wants you back and thinks that you're prepared, he'll take you away. and it's all good. so premature death really is wrong. that way you're not ready and it'll only lead to more suffering. all the fighting going on. the wars. all the pain. the aids epidemic, especially in africa. premature death? definitely. its all human err. yeah sure you may ask how can aids be stopped? protection. cautiousness and awareness. more medical aid for the needy. stop the fighting. its so immature and shallow. this one's dedicated to sam. you've been thru a real tough few months. the past few days especially. you may not agree with my theory but i hope it makes you feel even a little better. but you'll be alright. i promise.