all that cant be said

it's about losing and remembering. how many things are made to be remembered. while for others we cant help but remember.

CAUTIONARY WAVES

tellings stories of legends
myths of times rare
lands sunken with each wave of time
such will last my lifetime
and many more to come

but there are times
when we look out to sea
peaceful waves lapse over
yet we know something's not right
nothing just seems the same tonight

how long will we last?
stand the test of time
grow old with each strand of white hair
with each wrinkle of our face
will the memory of all this disappear?

out in the horizon
day is giving way to the night
vast planes of magnificence
joined as one with another in the sky
will it all go away someday?

she used to call them cautionary waves
when the tide rises high
and the rocks disappear under
the foam now leaves itself on the shore
all a blur and nothing more

the stories i knew so well
told others and understood
told to me by her alone
everyday i sit at this same spot
waiting for the next wave of thought of her

it is here i find her spirit
only here i know her soul exists still
with each lap of the wave
comes a single flash of her
waves which she disappeared under

remembering isnt easy
neither is forgetting
i wish she'd believed it herself
those waves werent anything ordinary
like legends they were forever keeping her.

so i'm trying my hand at rapping and some hip hop. hahaha. i love this one.

HAPPILY EVER AFTER (PIMPED VERSION)

rocked out baby
cant stop its sold out
flick my finger at the thriller
rock it out babe
maybe it'll be the killer
look up there
it's the camera
a black and white affair
she's so pretty
look at her

post her picture
sell it to the crowd
mtv's new feature
they be cheering loud
give it up now

hear me rap
it's time you took a step
so get back now
get back
cos imma blow your mind
now its time
cos its a special kind
now i'm fine
cos imma blow your mind

now he's back there doing numbers
dancing to the beat of sound
breaking it like wacko jacko
bringing the roof down to the ground
woah now so get back yo
get back

she's looking from behind
she's impressed
man he's fine
watch him grooving to the beat
taken right off LA's street
take it back now
cos he's up on the stage
take it back yo
she's looking him up on a yellow page

so wow
and then they meet somehow
in a club in a town
all grown up, decked up in style
she's so pretty
tonight he's free
they hook up
live since together
drinking cristal
happily ever after

pharrell babe youre so hot
you've got me jumping on the spot
read this here
call me my dear
then we'll live happy ever after.
word.

this is all ben's idea. i had nothing to do with it.

A POEM BY BENEDICT LOW

Oh, anal hair,
Oh anal hair,
Without you, my arse would be so bare!a
I wouldn't even dare,
to take a peek at my bottom,
without getting shocked off my scrotum.
I know this is getting too adult,
for my little appreciation about,
you, my precious, precious anal hair.
Oh, anal hair,
Oh anal hair,
Without you, I'll feel so bare.
Oh anal hair,
How I love you so.
I love you anal hair.

gosh this one screams desperate. haha

WHY DO YOU EVEN TALK TO ME?

I am so caught up
I don’t know what to do
I’m tired of waiting
But I can’t forget you
This is my dilemma
Told out in some lines
This is my confession
Please, love, give me some signs
I can’t go on like this
Because now I’m feeling like a loada rotten piss

My phone’s sitting there
I’m waiting for your call
Sulking on my chair
“Could you meet me at the mall”
Why don’t you ever ask me?
I like you and I know you see
If you don’t feel the same
At least don’t play me
I need someone I can blame
I just don’t see why it should be me

Waiting and anticipating
Where are you?
What are you doing?
Hoping but never learning
Are you thinking of me?
Well I’m thinking of you too.
Finding answers all in vain
Need I mention it’s us again.

So you’re big ass popular
And girls love being around you
They fling their hair
You act all cool like you don’t care
It’s nice to know you talk to me
Leaving the other girls to be
Imagine my feeling when you leave prettyland
Come over to join in the uglygang
I enjoy your company
Hoping with me you similarly agree

Waiting and anticipating
Where are you?
What are you doing?
Hoping but never learning
Are you thinking of me?
Well I’m thinking of you too.
Finding answers all in vain
Need I mention it’s us again.

dont hang on to things that will die.

CARDBOARD FORTRESS

you and i together we built it
the monument in my backyard
one we knew only pride of
the only thing in the world we shared
tall and mighty was our stronghold
holding a promise alive and bold
together forever in our cardboard fortress

you left me here all alone
just me and my faded sweater
a heart full of anguish
a soul filled with confused regret
how am i supposed to go on?
how do you expect me to survive?
all the comfort i knew was us
together forever in our cardboard fortress

remember sandpit number 3
the blueprint representing you and me
the plan for out future together
now we are so far off track
drifted apart with stormy weather
wishful thinking on our part
could a cardboard fortress defend our hearts?

why did you leave me on my own
holding on to my old faded sweater
dont you feel any anguish?
is your soul devoid of all regret?
now you expect me to move on
arent you afraid i wont survive?
the comfort you assured was us
together forever in our cardboard fortress

that cold wednesday afternoon
as the wind blew hard against the window
the sun moved to give way to the moon
you grabbed my blue sweater
told me to wait for you there
that day you brought our fortress into the room
told me one day you'll be my groom

yesterday you called me on my phone
told me this has gone on too long
"i need some time to be on my own"
you told me how we were so wrong
i listen and watch my entire world collapse
i fight back the tears, acting strong
praying to god for time to elaspe
with quick speed, please i need

why did you leave me on my own
holding on to my old faded sweater
dont you feel any anguish?
is your soul devoid of all regret?
now you expect me to move on
arent you afraid i wont survive?
the comfort you assured was us
together forever in our cardboard fortress

false hope built on old rotten soil
stronghold made of mouldy cardboard
we thought that was enough
unexpectedly under danger sprawled
my fault, i did it on my own accord
young naive and too eager to believe
love materialised in simple child's play
together forever in our cardboard fortress

lost now
gone somehow
what should i do?
baby i love you

this one is by a friend who chooses to remain anoynomous.

IDLE WIND

now comes spring
in the heat of things
in full bloom is was meant
not to me my fate is bent

its been lies I say
thinking it doesn’t stay
deep inside this shallow pit
feelings aren’t quite fit

nothing’s in, void
press deep and find space
too weak to settle
on this bottomless race

midst of the flowering fields
an idle wind is
Lilacs smile and roses dance
against me, I must forgo the chance

some things I know
I am not alone
for there is a conversion
from embedment to drone

As always
seasons come and go
spring will end, summer’s here
out comes the sun again
so crawl out of the rabbit hole
its more than just than gold

so pray with time it’ll fade
just like how it was made
so heartbroken I may leave
its good for me, a lousy thief