all that cant be said

up in the sky so far
he's my bright shining star
my guide in times of lost
as to destruction i accost
i find the hope i seek
a tinge, even if it all seems bleak
enough to keep me going
in pursuit of that one glowing
a thunderous roar in the sky
and to my lifeline i wave goodbye
then i wake
and in this sacrament i partake
a different light i see
relaxed may my soul be
as i am inducted
amongst the faithfully departed
just a while ago
the star i wished on so
wasnt enough to keep me alive
into the shadows i dive
my spirit taken on a flight
released from this treacherous plight
the love for which i lorn
is now forever gone
yet i suffer not
emotions erased like a robot
my little thorn so trivial
i fell to something ever so menial
the world i left behind
severing the ties that bind
i think they call this one death.

this one is pretty dumb...

a harpoon to the heart
travelling like a quick dart
almost as deadly as a smelly fart
sharks like that they dont sell at walmart
the money i shall use to buy a go kart
i just hope i dont turn out like bart
or my limbs five metres apart
forget it i'll just buy an apple tart
donate the rest for a start
then my fishing knowledge i will impart
to any seeking to satisfy the heart.

the one standing there
so beautiful nothing can compare
this time they share
high school sweethearts jim and clare
two lovers an inseparable pair
dreaming of a life so fair
together in their secret lair
pain which alone he cannot bear
with her he longs to share
for she in return really does care
other lives apart they tear
my heart on my sleeve i wear
my wounds it will repair
matters of the heart's affair
love is abundant as air
to this feeling my five senses impair
you just have to swear
that forever you'll dare
to love as if your heir
a love like theirs isnt rare
be aware
just look you'll find it over there.

before me a plate of veal
my last sumptous meal
as before you i kneel
my fate you seal
it all seems so surreal
the walls i face coated in teal
the intensity of the emotions i feel
to him i make my last appeal
for my heart to him reveal
so that he can help me deal
with the pain so long i had to conceal
hurting me like the skin i peel
please please make me heal
for it goes on like a never-ending wheel

to a certain extent i do regret
i feel it's my own fault
the opportunity was right there
i didnt take it
now all thats left is nothing
its all but a distant memory of what was
everyday i look to the same place
hoping for magic
for it to reappear
or for it to disappear
cos i know i let it slip
it didnt go
i let it slip
i looked at it and it looked back at me
both of us trying to hide the obvious glances
i regret not showing it how i really am
i regret not justifying the feeling
it's empty and unexplainable
yet its strong and lasting
forever i'll live in the shadow of 'if''
what if i took it? what if?

you know the feeling
of another boring morning
heavily it is raining
all you wanna do is go on sleeping

thw dew smells great
but you are resigned to the fate
of having school on this date
so reluctantly i drag myself across the gate

she seems to talk a lot
her voice sounding like a robot
she talks as she writes to the last dot
she doesnt want me to sleep but how can i not?

"man look at those eyebags!"
i say as my own face sags
i hate weekday mornings, theyre such drags
plus i gotta wake uo and see those damn fags

so i'm sitting in the classroom
while outside the sky goes "boom!"
around me again does darkness loom
i just wanna go hime, away from this gloom.

the sorrow of a world
united in prayer
asking for repose
for a soul who cared

his smile lit up our day
love that shone through in every way
his blessings so powerful
healing the sick, comforting the despaired.

now, over there he lies
eyes shut, never to open again.
his days in purgatory will soon end
then he will be placed at god's hand

the lives he touched
we will never forget
the noble on we lost
a leader so great

never will his memory grow faint
he leaves a legend
behind him a legacy
a string of miracles, memorable ones

as he joins those before him
we are assured he is taken care of
this, in loving memory of our holy father
who showed us all the way to our creator.

just watched the season finale of laguna beach. ouchh. man it was so sad when trey left. and when stephen was talking to kristin he was crying! oh man can't wait for season 2. hopefully stephen trey and the rest will come back often. but hey there's still kristin and talan. man you guys should really start watching laguna beach. it's better than OC in my opinion. and it's far more addictive than anything on the teevee. damn 11 episodes ago i didnt know wad it was to want more teevee. now i want more!!

i dont believe in love
the world is full of hate
aimless anger served on a plate

so what if i die alone?
it wont be much of a chore
however exciting, still love's a bore

it's difficult being the minority
i think people call those like me
a pessimist of sorts, so i shall be

compassion's for the saints
it really isnt in my nature
i'd rather be on an african adventure

love's really just not my thing
if i find someone it'll just be a fling
or maybe a chance to get some bling

a feeling like this doesnt happen to everyone
apparently cupid doesnt choose just anyone
"no man's an island." whatever.

i can do it by myself
i dont need someone next to me
alone and hated i am so happy

often we dont give enough credit
to the places which actually deserves it
we are blocked by what we see
influences. so god help me!
blinded by the tangible
the ones which we regard
we oversee how its breakable
and of how its all just a facade
we look over the one just standing
there in front of us yearning
for the love we aim at the other
so again and again we blunder
sometimes its just right there
"its so hard to see" you swear
stop making the unnecessary
those that wont be recognised
oddly and on the contrary
the one of whom you never fantasised
is the one who knows
the one who shows
the love which grows
as each moment passes on
the heart grows fond
he's right there cant you see?
if not for eternal ages
lonely you shall be

wow that took me like 3 minutes. man i love poetry!!