all that cant be said

OKAY WITH YOU GONE

holding flowers over a tomb
walking cautiously over those in bloom
the light drizzle against my skin
the light winds carress the hurt i hold within
the afternoon light warms the cold inside my heart
that void which has been existent ever since
how ironic with the rain falling
while inside i experience drought
deep in thought of how it came about
not plagued by pain,
but bothered by the lack thereof
the numbness i wonder how it came to be
as in life you were always with me
am i wrong to feel this way
because im only here to attain redemption
for forgetting you, ignoring what you had to say
i come to know to take to blame
of how it all feels the same
how should i feel without you around
not joy not pain nothing abound
confused my heart is turned away
why the prayers do nothing alay
widened thoughts and flashbacks of time
if i could what will i unwind
so today i visit you here
evoke in me some passion and feeling
let this load of nothing disappear
throw me sorrow
chained to a tear for each tomorrow
give me pain
make me wish i want you back again
take something dear away from me
let me feel i'e lost my way
please tell me how im supposed to be
i need to know what you have to say
i can't continue being okay with you gone